I don't know if its my age and stage, or the fact that we're coming to the end of another year that has flown by, or if there are other influences bringing this thought to mind, but lately the recurring phrase that continues to come to me is "Live Deliberately". So much of the time I feel like I am being tossed along each day in my life without a plan, without priorities. It occurred to me that it
doesn't have to be that way. Priorities have always been a challenge for me and a lot of anxiety comes from conflicts between my roles and priorities. I try as hard as I can to control and schedule and I can never seem to follow through on the plan. I get distracted, it's like I suffer from adult ADD. Maybe the distraction is really avoidance. I KNOW I avoid all kinds of things right down to going to bed at a decent hour...how silly. How long I waited to be a mom and I find myself looking for ways to avoid that too. Why? So I know that it is human nature to move as quickly as possible from discomfort to comfort. Who said life was supposed to be comfortable? If we're really living to fulfill the purpose we've been called to then NOTHING can be comfortable.
So, here's my approach. Identify my priorities...God, my husband, my child, and my calling. Every day I will choose to live deliberately according to those priorities. How? I'm still working on it. One thing I know for certain though is that it's going to take some thought, some prayer and some major behavior change. For so long I have allowed this
haphazard existence and it's going to take time to change. But if I just take one challenge at a time and build on the discipline then I will get there.
"In all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us." Romans 8:37